I did Love

It's not that I don't love him
It's not that I couldn't love him
It's not that I didn't love him
Because I do, I could, I did
I didn't trust him
Never had a reason to
Had many reasons not to love him too
But somehow I did
But trust we lacked
Maybe it was because I knew too much
Maybe it was that I'd seen too much
Maybe it was because I loved him too much to truly trust him, and have him hurt me
Maybe I needed a have myself to blame, when all was said and done
Maybe I needed someone to share the blame
Because I loved him too much to let it all be his fault
But I did love him
I did
I mean I had to
I didn't leave when the world knew I should
I didn't leave when I knew I should
I didn't leave when he knew I should
I loved through it
I did love
I really did
Didn't I?