He looks at Me

He stares at me and then turns his head.
It is as if his eyes no longer see what they did at one time.
It is like the sight of me causes him pain.
Much like that he caused me with a lack of reciprocity.

He walks by me and doesn't speak.
It is as if to utter words in my direction would tear him apart.
It is like talking to me would bring back some painful time in his life.
Much like it does when I hear his favorite line in a movie.

He sees me coming and goes the other way.
It is as if being near me will cause him to burst into tears.
It's like my presence will somehow ruin what he is working to build.
Much like I'm constructing a life without awkwardness and drama.

Maybe he hates the sight of me because he thinks he'll see what he did to me
Maybe he can't speak to me because he fears I will talk about it
Maybe he doesn't want to be near me because he'll see it's by no means the same as it used to be
Maybe there is a reason he pushes me out of his sight, conversation, and presence

Could be because he still has to look in the mirror
He still has to live in his own presence,
And the conversation he plays in his thoughts could never be the one we have in real life.
Could be it's easier to avoid me than himself.

He looks at me and turns his head
He walks by me and doesn't speak
He sees me coming and goes the other way
SCREW HIM!



Part 2 Coming Soon...